The REAL me

You ever wonder why it is women are afraid to be themselves? We walk around "pretending" everything is okay when we are falling apart on the inside. We act like we have it all together when we are really a total mess! I think if we actually took a risk and were more transparent with people, we might be able to change someone's life.

I have taken risks like this and it felt so wonderful. But there have been other times where I have done this and I did not see the results. I just have to trust God that he is using my story to touch other peoples lives. I think that the greatest impact that we have on others we might not ever know about. So all we can do is just do our best, follow our hearts, and be true to ourselves.

That being said, I don't think we have to "bare all" to every person either. I truly believe that God will guide and direct us to who and what we are to share. Some things about my life I will probably never share with another human being for as long as I live. But there have been times that I have been prompted to share certain things and I knew deep within me that it was for that person and it had to be shared.

There is POWER in YOUR story!! And we ALL have one.

It's a new day

I am sitting here at the end of my day wondering why I choose to eat when I am not hungry. You ever feel that way? I sure do. You know, the chips and salsa are on the table but they are baked chips so it really doesn't matter how much you eat, right?

Ugh! I hate that. And even worse is that even now, I am thinking about what I could snack on. I don't understand why we want to eat when we aren't even hungry. It is so hard to try to keep the flesh in line.

Tomorrow is a new day!

How did I get here?

Boy, I'm not even sure where to start, so here goes. I have struggled with my weight for a long time. I was over weight in junior high and then battled briefly with anorexia. After that, I didn't have any problems with my weight until after I had my first child. Funny thing is, I gained exactly 20 pounds with that pregnancy and could fit back into my pre-pregnancy jeans 6 weeks later. It was after this that I learned to cook. I started teaching myself how to make awesome desserts. Well, the pounds started packing on.

Things went from bad to worse really quick. I ended up overeating and cooking more and more things and got up to 202 pounds! I saw that number on the scale and new right then I had to make a change. I joined a program at my church called Weigh Down and that is how I lost the majority of my weight. That was almost 10 years ago.

However, I have gone from my goal weight back up 25 pounds and back down and somewhere in between during the course of that 10 year span. Each time I blog, I will share more about my journey from 10 years ago to where I am today and the progress I am making. I hope to be an inspiration to you. Thank you so much for taking the time to read my blog.